A S - S H A U K

Rindu… That's all i can say..it was like 5 6 years ago..November 2011 the start of everything..just a moment ago i open up an old message with her..only me and her..start to know each other..keep miss each other, send a picture even sing a song to each other.. I start to like her..it was my very first time to like and adoring someone not because of love..because of the way she protect herself..her good muslimah way indeed had attract me so much..and at the same reason i don't want to disturb her..i pray that she will be constantly and yet better with her muslimah  value..it was all i could ever do to like her.. Plus i am not good enough to be with a women like her.. a good pray is enough for me..i will always pray a good for her..she had told me that there are still my dream girl in this world and it was her..silent love is the best for me..i admit that u cannot always have what u want but you can always pray for the best..it is not that i am coward.. It is me that didn’t want to broke any diamond that are truly beauty that i dont deserve for…i will always miss our moment and pray the food for her..good luck for each other future..kalo ade jodoh x kemane kan..peace✌️ assalamualaikum~

HATI

kadang-kadang aku rase sedey sangat kat diri sendiri ta tau la knape

ape najadi..aku memang lelaki tapi aku bukann kuat aku ta seperfect na jadi jadi idaman sume orang tapi aku ade hati yang aku jage..aku tau aku dbenci..orang panggil aku smpy penipu munafik sume. tapi sebenanye aku mang da jatuh hati kat "die". aku jatuh hati kat kebaikan yang ade pade die.sebab die aku na brubah aku mcm janji kat diri sendiri na jadi yg layak untuk die.aku tau ak ta layak dats why la ari2 aku try aku na jdi imam yg baik aku berubah semata-mate sebab kebaikan yg ade pada die. aku ta pnah jpe org sebaik tu n first aku tau aku ta na lepas kan die.aku ajar diri sendiri brubah..Pi semua tu hancur dah...ngan hati2 aku skali 

Maafkan aku ya Allah maafkan aku...bialah aku dituduh macam2 tapi aku mampu hidup demi mu Ya Allah

maybe ni dugaan aku sendiri.aku ta brani kacau die lagy bub ak tau aku ta layk n die pun benci sangat da akt aku..yes die ckp aku da ade kekasih n die ta pna tau knpe. die tanye aku jwb tade p die ta tau knape..

 ta pnah tetambat pun sape2.hati aku tetap kosong..untill aku jupe die. kebaikan die yg pikat aku. aku ta pnah ckp syg kat die bub aku takut aku rosakkan kebaikan die. ati ak da lame syg kat die tapi aku simpan bub ta halal n aku tamau rosakkan iman die..p ni lah dugaan aku...even die da benci aku skunk p aku ta pna nafikan yg aku tetap syg die walaupun ak ta pna bgitau kat die..bialah aku smpan untuk dri sendiri..mang ni naseb ak

aku ta layak untuk org yg sebaik die...p aku tamau berhenti kat sini je aku na terus brubah jadi baek bub die even aku dibenci...terima kasih untuk semua ni...............=')

Saban hari berlalu.....upenye dah dewasa dah aku...umur da 20 da pon..tetibe je da tua....hmm tapi bukan tua la topik die..topik die mengenai betapa besarnye rahmat dan kurnian Allah sebalik ujian dan dugaan yg dberi kpada hambanya....

Sekarang ni bariu aku sedar yang segala dugaan dan cubaan yang aku terima adalah kebaikan yang paling besar aku dapat...cube la bayangkan kalau manusia dcipta tanpa sebarang ujian kesusahan senang je sokmo...mak ai makin pmalas lupa tuhan lupe bersyukur la alamatnye..manusia memang camtu....mudah lupe bila menikmati kesenangan tapi alhamdulillah aku dah bersyukur dengan ape yang aku dah dapat

. Sume ni smata-mata anugerah Allah S.W.T. yang maha Besar lagi maha Agung.

Allah dah memperingatkan bahwa Azab bagi mereka yang tidak bersyukur tapi manusia tetap leka jugak..aku pun tak tau kenapa...mereka ini kebanyakan dari golongan yang senang dan nikmat sebab tu la diorang lupekan yang diorang tu sume pinjam dari Allah...semoga kita tak tergolong orang2 yang tamak dan lupe kewajipan terhadap Islam...

HATRED INDEED

IM PATIENT WHO KNOWS

IM ANGRY WHO KNOWS

IM LONELY DOES EVERONE KNOWS

WHO KNOWS GOD KNOWS

IM SILENT NOISE OUT

IM HAPPY FUCKING LIED UP

LET ME BE ME JUST ME ONLY ME

WHO AM I HAV TO BE

TILL THEN IM PUSH MY LIFE SO HARD

TEACH ME SHOW ME HOW TO STAND STRAIGHT TIGHT

EVEN MY LIFE JUST IT SUCKS

I KNOW MY LIFES BEST SO IT SHOULD NOT BE CUTS

I PLAY MY MISSION ON AS FAST

LET THEM EAT ME THEN I KEEP THEM SHUT

IT TAKES YEARS BUT I SURE ITS SATISFIED

SO DONT EVER NEVER DESPAIR TILL YOU GET TO THE LAST.........

PART 2

hello and assalamualaikum..this is the second part from my first post

don't know where to start....errrm let me just start with the question why am i choose poli rather than uni..actually the course for uni was not so suitable for me as i want to be an architect for my future career..i really upset..it was my wrong since i had a big mistake by choose the wrong course..

ok done with it..i'm so sorry.i l really want to forget about this as i've done the biggest mistake for my life...

ok..lets be with something else then...errrmm..haaa....the music thing..it is true i could compose a song..i have done it so many times..since i also have my own band and i present as lead guitarist and second vocalist.my band play rock n roll and britpop.we"ve been in gig sometimes before.. actually i experince with 5 band and i present as drummer.keyboardist and guitarist..

some say i should continue with music. Maybe music is talented but i think my vision to be an architect is more important for me.So i just done it as my hobby and fill my leisure time..heerrm

i really enjoy making some song especially when they love it..so happy when people appreciating it..heheh

i guess that all i can write for now,,..i'm afraid be so nonsense if continue..haha

sorry for the language if i do..thanks for reading..it is write from the heart..hehee.. :P

assalamualaikum

amir the name given and the full name is MOHD AMIR BIN MOHD ARIS.. 19 teenagers boy,
i will gain my age at 8 October every year..continue my study in architecture course.
actually i'm poor for my writing but my oral much better..i've got 6 people in my family including my mum and dad which means i have 4 siblings made from 2 brother and a sister..i am the last one...for my leisure time,mostly been filled by make saome drawing and play guitar..plus i made some music too...issh..feels like make an essays for primary school..


anyway this is actually good to improving my english..
its been 1 year i continuing my study at polytechnic.but it was a hard decision to make whether i must go uitm or polytechnic..after struggling thinking and thinking then i decide to go through here..there's a reason why i didn't go for uni...hmmm
hate to remind about this..

let's forget about it..i really wanna write something with fully happiness but still couldn't get that mood

right now..next time i'll try

the best i can write is i am not a cynical person and everyone should know that...

MOHD AMIR BIN MOHD ARIS
AMIR
8/10/1991
ARCHITECTURE STUDENT
LOVE:

• PLAYING GUITAR
• LISTENING MUSIC
• SLEEP
• EAT
• GIGS
• HANG OUT

boohza_jam@yahoo.com.my